When Colby left, nearly a month ago, it was intended that he would return to Florida in a few weeks. However, because of unforeseen changes with schooling, it worked out better for him to stay in Utah. The good news is that I didn't have a melt down at the airport when he left. The bad news is that I haven't seen him in nearly a month and I miss him so much it hurts. He started Jr. High (and just as soon as Jason sends me the pics I will post them), an occasion that I sorrow at missing. Although, it should be noted that he doesn't seemed phased at all that his mom wasn't there to wail and blubber about his growing up with out her permission!
And so that is how, if you do the math, we are down to only two...
Grammy's been with us for two weeks and we said goodbye to her today, as well. She and Caitlin are two of a kind when it comes to their love of the ocean. Hours on the beach, evenings in the pool, snorkeling and sea shell collecting were they ways they spent their days. Carter and I returned today, after therapy, to a quiet, lifeless condo. How we will miss those two and their laughter and excitement (at the best sea shell they found, even though it looks just like the other two million they've already collected)!
Can I make a confession? I secretly want to tell Dr. Paley that we are done, we'll just take what we have and, thank you very much, head out of here. But, we can't. No, we can't (that's me convincing myself). We've come so far and we can't quit before we reach our goal, right!?! I know that, for many patients, the end of the lengthening process is the hardest part. But, really? THIS hard? Carter is in pain most of the time. His muscles are so tight and P.T. and stretches are so difficult. Add to all of that, our longing to be home and the emptiness we feel when separated from loved ones, and you get the picture. This is hard.