Sorry I didn't post yesterday. There's only so much you can say about driving cross county and staying in a hotel and swimming! But, today we have big news... We Made It! We are here in West Palm Beach and settled into our hotel. Tomorrow we will recover from the travel and tie up some loose ends and Friday will be spent at the hospital doing pre-op stuff. We are fortunate to be heading up to Tampa for the weekend to spend some time with Aunt Cindy and her family. Then, we will get moved into our condo on Monday and the surgery is planned for 6:30 AM on Tuesday morning.
It all seems REAL now and I'm starting to have a hard time. For several weeks I've been focused on getting us here, but now that we are, reality is setting in. Jason has the kids out swimming and I am doing laundry (somethings never change) and I can feel the tears sneaking up on me. Can I really do this? Can I bear to watch Carter suffer through surgery and rehab yet again? Am I strong enough to stay here alone with my kids for four months?
I just went out to the pool and Caitlin had me watch her do a hand-stand and a back flip in the water. I remember so many summers spent at the beach and pool doing the same thing! When did life get so complicated? I seriously thought I was going to cry as I watched the kids frolicking in the water. Maybe I'm tired, maybe it's because I left my really darn cute swim dress and swimsuit at the hotel in Tallahassee, maybe it's because I left my really good hair conditioner in North Platte, or maybe it's because I just love them so much and I'm scared and the Mom isn't supposed to be scared!